I as I heal the missed place chi, and bring it back to me there are patterns, strategies and habits that are obstacles for achievement. I am learning about the matrix of archetypes. The one thing I am working on is Self-sabotage. I watch how I unconsciously programmed to do it.... Going to bed early, eating late at night. This morning was getting out of bed. Then surprise. I can't find the piece of information that is needed for my dissertation. Now on the search for it. I go through books then the internet and then I stop and realize it is self-sabotage. I find it is in my stomach meridian. I had clues of self sabotage. I had a friend text me about her situation (self sabotage). I had another friend email me (self sabotage). I see a family member running out of time to get something done (self sabotage). As I go looking for this paper. I am watching my reaction. I am irritated and frustrated that this is happening again (awareness it is a pattern). I learned of this information about 2 weeks ago. But the man that was helping me heal said, (He watched my videos.) "I know you focus on stuff you shouldn't, which will call it back." He is in ego mindset and judges how I help people heal. He can't fathom that I am successful at all. I said it isn't the focusing that does the healing. It is combining that with the healing tools that cancel it out and programs you and your subconscious mind to stop it. Anyways. I took what he said to heart and created myself not to heal. You see I have this program that is running that says, maybe he is right, underneath that is (dealing with it in action), he is telling me that I am doing it wrong, underneath that. ON and on it goes (getting real now) I am going to show him I don't do that. (now I am 3yrs old) don't accuse me of things like that. Oh look I am 43 yrs old and I am really running around reacting as a 3 yr old inside. Now I can heal the program.
As for changing my reality in minutes. As I have my epiphany, I use my tools to heal. Which changes the perception and stops producing the same chemical peptides that is causing all this. After about 2 minutes. I am thinking. If this is it, so be it and wave my magic wand (pointer finger). My healing part is done. I looked down to proceed looking for that information. What does my wondering eyes see. The information staring back at me. I popped it in. Awesome. Thank you God. I am training myself to receive another great moment of healing. I am ready for more, bring it on.
Thank you for letting me witness my healing for now that is worth writing it in stone.