Well, there was more to learn, so the lessons continue. I have learned to pay attention to my higher-self and my soul the first time or do the best I can the first time. I know that when it gets my attention, I observe as best I can. Sometimes I have to re-experience events to get into how I know this so I can release the programmed response.
I laid there and did my best to fall back to sleep. My thoughts were of slumber. My body on the other hand was going nuts. I instantly started to clog up. I couldn't breathe through my nose. My nose was draining into my throat which triggered a chain reaction of having to cough, cough, and cough some more. Then my lungs began to get mucus in them. I had put my ear plugs in so I didn't have to hear the environment. which means I could hear my inner noise better. My body has a mind of its own.
I laid there until I coughed so hard that you can imagine what happened next. For all of us women out there, you know what I am talking about. I wet myself. So now I am forced to change and get cleaned up. Well, now my body is saying, "Hey now that you are a wake..." My higher self said ignore the body we can be productive. Let us learn from this. So here I am doing just that.
My body was checking my environment and it scanned something to trigger a memory of survival. This memory was at age three. What was the criteria that caused my physical body to go nuts?
All the physical symptoms are correct according to the past programming including the strategy to survive and unresolved issues. I read in the book, "The Emotion Code" by Bradley Nelson on page 96. "Remembering the Kamikazes" It is a great read. Our white blood cells are programmed by us.
The energy of your thoughts and feelings exerts a subtle effect on other people as well as other forms of life. We are constantly making contact with others whether we realize it or not, since all energy is continuous and connected.
Dr. Bradley Nelson, "The Emotion Code"
Your thoughts are made of energy. When they are created they emanate energy. The more intensity of emotions, the more you know the story, the more you become obsessed of thinking about the subject, the more you can't stop focusing on it, the stronger the entanglement cord and the vibration will be more intense. The vibration is already set but the speed of how one will feel its force will determine on how you know you know it. There is hope and resolving tools.
When I do Hope Therapy in Soul coaching, I often come up with Stomach meridian and how we as humans morph. When you have unresolved issues you will send out a signal to the universe and the law of attractions kicks in. You get more of the same issue.
I began to walk to bed and I started to cough and cough. Okay body you got my attention. I looked at my self-talk and nothing consciously anyways. Okay out of the 41 thoughts per minute, which ones are focused on what? A particular memory, yes. Okay, what age? I get thirteen. I stop and notice no emotions or thoughts as I had cleared those out so long ago. Hmm... It as when i was raped. I got yes. I check to find the first trapped negative emotion is defenselessness and I am empathically (roll six times) picking it up from someone that was raped a long time ago but it it is still in their field. Now that makes sense. The next one is overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed (empathic and inherited roll ten times) by the empathic pick up as my body check the environment. Then I am picking up the overwhelmed of the trapped emotion that is inside that person, some say that is a double whammy. Again very important to have the learning's to what I am saying. For those of you that didn't read it, No I didn't pick it up (or take it on) and not let go of it. This is a a moment interaction with the relationship to my environment and people. This is an unresolved issue that is deep.
Apparently I have a heart wall against dreaming and the trapped emotion is creative insecurity at age 42. hmm... Time to roll and then go to bed.
My day was unfolding with bonding time with my family. I got an email of resolution and had to share it with the family. More hurts came to the surface and the healing was done today. I am so proud of us all. A lot of healing of wounds from the past. Used hope therapy.
Time to investigate. My body anticipates when things are about to happen. I will begin to get sick.