As I step into my next part of my journey to put myself out there.
I have changed my sleeping habits and balancing my energies everyday as well as blog consistently. That is huge for me because I am not good at English and the rules. I go into freeze mode and dumb mode. Anyways...
Now I am at the part that I must create a platform. I began creating a platform a while ago without knowing it. In June 2012, I learned that if you don't have one then it won't matter if you write a great book; there will be no one to read it. A platform is where you have people who want your message. They are moved by it in some way. Some call them fans. I refer to them as my peers. We are working together to create a change.
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I was supposed to make a guest appearance on a show. It was a two hour show. I would be brought on the second half. The first hour had another guest appearing. I was there listening in que. I learned something because the topic was one I didn't know about. The guest was then talking about dream interpretation. I love to do dream interpretation. That is one thing I offer to my clients. The guest's definition was correct on the level that they saw it. I saw another level. In anything you do, there are many levels of perception that can be had. You become aware of which definition resonates with you. I listen to how they were giving meaning to this dream. As I listened, this is where some people would call it a disagreement; I saw another meaning to the dream. As the guest had the stage to speak her expertise, I respected what the guest said about their belief and it was correct for them. I wasn't introduced so I wasn't allowed my point of view nor did I think I should interrupt because I didn't want to show rudeness nor debate. Had I known what was going to happen next, I would have posted my meaning of the dream in the chat room. I have far more respect for the guest then what I felt they had giving me. They went over the dream interpretation real quick and it was a lot of great laughs. I believe sometimes I am too serious and thorough about my job.
Now, it is my turn to come on the radio show. I called in Spirit and said okay do your stuff. I talked about my expertise in my field of quantum law of attraction with healing or resolution tools to help a person transform the chemical peptide. The host asked questions. I answered. The two hosts seem to be happy with the information I spoke of.
The first guest was still there and that is when I felt as if this was an ambush. I know it wasn't nor was it premeditated but I didn't see it coming. When our soul wants us to re-experience a feeling sometimes it has to set up the experience in such way to get the ultimate experience for you. I don't mind people disagreeing with me but what got me was how we were not in sync and the explosive energy of something negative begins to shoot out at me. I am not one for arguing. One could see it as questioning and room for growth. That could have been true but there was no room for my words only theirs. No growth can be had when a someone is making sure I get it or the audience sees their point and they are right.
Question directed to the two guests.
Do you notice a lot more people becoming more interested in metaphysical healing?
The host directed the question to me first and then to the other guest. After the guest spoke, I expanded on a topic that the guest had pointed out. Then the guest was making sure they were heard. I am not sure if they thought I was disagreeing with them or not. They came back to the topic but... They went into how they don't like how we are being pushed into thinking a certain way. They were explaining that they saw more division. I said, "Yes and no." I explained we come in alignment with our thinking. At that point, I knew that it wouldn't make a difference of what I would say. I wish that I had said that, "We have to look for proof to prove we are right." But I also know, those words can be triggering words. So I refrained from using certain terminology. I didn't want to poke the bear. I started to spin out because this was no longer a friendly discussion. I felt as this person saw me as a religious hate group as in the Westboro Baptist church or the KKK. I basically went into defending myself mode. I also became lost in what the hell is happening. Instead of going back to the topic the guest did not like what my expertise was in. I spiraled into the behavior of how relatives act when the person they love is on the brink of death. You are in the hospital and doctor has a job to do. They don't have time to coddle you. They have to be short and terse to keep the patient alive. I felt like the relative that wanted answers and to make things correct but I know I didn't have the strength. I felt my strength seeping out of me.
I had explained that my soul wants me to evolve. I talked about how if we don't get a lesson then how many times will it take to learn it and let it go? Sometimes a whisper is all we need to change or we can go as far as fallen to our knees and hitting rock bottom. I know I didn't explain it so eloquently. I wish that I had but I was in a middle of a lesson.
I also didn't say people want me to evolve. I am not saying that government, society or churches want you to evolve. It is my soul. Our souls are communicating at all times. Our personalized individualized soul is running the show and no other people. It is me that says that, "If I am not at a point in my life then it is written in my soul contract to create chaos to help me let it go to move forward." But of course, I was in freeze mode and couldn't spit it out. I also couldn't explain the critical factor of why we have chaos. I began to rattle on and it was one of those moments
The guest said, "I always tell people, to try to bump up against someone else’s perception or try to change somebodies else perception. You are doing nothing more than creating more chaos."
The energy I got off of it was hate and they don't like my kind. I also see my lens as they don't like me and they think I am wrong. The guest is accusing me of doing harm. I don't talk to people unless they approach me. I don't give words where it isn't warranted. I will be a catalog of life choices because someone is always watching you. If someone wants what you have to offer, they will come to you. I am not some of those people on TV that just walk up to strangers and show my stuff. I respect boundaries. I hear people’s soul crying and begging but the outer person is still in charge.
After we took the break, I was looking for what just triggered me, which I teach as the twang. It was when the guest used the words, "YOU ARE." I was hooked emotionally. I could feel the blaming. I wrote to the cast, does it come across that I am forcing my beliefs? The guest said HOLY feedback. I was scrambling to figure out what energy am I putting out there that created this projection. What the hell is holy feedback?
I also noticed the guest was going against their own belief system. They were explaining their truth just like I had. They were telling their knowledge and expertise just like I had. You can't help to bump up against others perceptions because how will growth occur. As they are giving their truth and giving information that others may not have heard or thought of before is creating chaos, in my opinion. When a person hold a towards and away from, meaning they are moving towards what they want and going away from what they don't it can cause an in-congruency in a person. Where one part of you believes one way and another part of you believes another but you are unaware you do this behavior.
I noticed a pattern starting this diary. I see the words "You are" from this guest as well as the one lady on facebook. They both didn't like me because they said I was doing something. The one on facebook said I was saying I am telling people "You are this or that" in an accusing way and this guest said, you are being. Hmm. Then I see how both times I was discouraged. I am to stop my behavior of participating.
One thing I learned was to express and show my life as the example. If people want to learn from it, great. I respect other people's thoughts and opinions. Even if I don't agree with it I respect they are human and they have the right to be them. I don't believe I have the right to shut them down.
Change in progress
1. Sleeping the cycle that my body was built to do. I go to bed by 12:30am.
2. Thank you Therapy and Golden Lasso.
3. I do 5 minute routine.
4. After the neurolympathic rub I trace my meridians
5. Because the meridians I have, that are out of whack in the morning are consistent, I do strengthening the acupuncture points exercise. During the time I started this diary, I have made a chart that helps me log. Maybe I can make another chart or check list. It has to be placed where I see it.
6. Witnessing on receiving. This is proof of my healing. The receiving has increased that I have noticed. It is now that I am to train myself that it can happen all the time instead of just once in a while. This helps me not to fall back into oh thinking and receiving habits.
7. No lipo lipo technique 30 times in one spot three times a week.
8. Writing Blog everyday.
Changes coming up
2. Radio shows
3. Eating healthier
4. Write book