I said out loud "It is done". Meaning the energy dropped and the conversation was over. I then get the words said me; it was my fault because I got mad. I don't remember being mad. I remember noticing how the energy is not there to support what I was talking about. I might have been discouraged and the emotion of disgust and the thought and emotion process of, "What just happened?" energy was present.
In a Human mindset, the relationship would be taking a hit. Two people are out of sync. We both would be observing and wanting to talk about it. Or one wants to talk while the other wants it to end. I am unable to speak for this person. From a human mindset point of view, I know that in the old days of humble/humiliation I would have been hurt and shut down. Then to hear it is my fault that the relationship went south.
The other persons point of view: They are in the conversation and then they watch me switch and they are confused and not sure how one day they respond in that way and it is the greatest and the next time they respond the same way and it is they are doing something wrong. I am so thankful that they shared.
Can you see how both people can be right? They dropped out of sync and are in the same space. No fault and no blame it happened. One or both of us began to unfold a lesson. One thing to remember here is both of our souls agreed to this particular point to come together to create an experience.
Then with that energy of confusion, what age did I become? What age did they become? Since this is about me and my lens. I will say that the little girl in me sees through a lens that really isn't there in that chronically age I am. It is not in this time period. I see them coming and I have to stop and obey. I must give them my full attention. I am asked to go with them. I normally can't say no because in the past I would see them feel hurt. (The sound waves along would hurt me because they blamed me) But are they hurt or is that the four years old again? I asked them what they are thinking and they say "I am confused". They are mulling over how to approach me.
Another example of discouragement. I wanted a shelf in my bedroom. I see it in the house next door in the upstairs hallway. I was looking for something and noticed that the shelf had been cleaned off and ready for transportation. I thought I want this. The energy moves me and I just do it. I moved it and it was really light, cumbersome but light. Now to get it down the stairs and the person I was with wasn't going to help me. So I did it myself. I figured out how to walk it across the room then lay it down on its backside and slide it gently down the stairs. At the landing I must pivot it to get it down another flight of stairs. Once there, I picked it up and carried it through the two rooms and out the door and down another two flights of steps. I got it in the basement. I was so close to the door to my house. I had to go up three steps. I was out of breath or I should say my lungs where closing because of asthma. I know when not to push it when I don't have the inhaler. The person I was with told me to ask my husband and have him take the shelf to the bedroom. To bat my eyes and be girlish. I know that I don't do that and it never worked for me. I don't like to manipulate people. I don't and didn't like when I asked him
My husband had company. I know better than to interrupt. Do you see it? Another program that needs to be updated. What needs to be updated is the limitations and how I see his reaction (I make him show up that way because of the way I project my reality. Yes, he may be doing that anyway and that is his issue.) Once I resolve the negative that is with it. The universe will help me arrange moments that are better than the one I just created. Anyways, I got the shelf to the basement and then it would only be a few more steps to the bedroom. I told the person I was to go get my husband. They did and he helped me and we finished carrying it to the designated spot.
I noticed there was another reason why I was showing the person I was with about doing it yourself. If you use your brain when you want something you can do almost anything. If a door closes a window opens. I am always looking for the entrance from another place. I may have to hear no from one place but then I often hear yes from somewhere else.
Changing the physical aspect of me.
ANSWER: I have gone to the Chiropractor many times to make adjustments and then no more problems. Then out of the blue while I am sleeping my muscles don't hold the bones in place and bam I am right back were I started again.
I have deterioration on my left help really bad. This causes my right hip to pop out and they say that is all because my left leg is shorter than the right. I am to wear a lift. I know one thing. That medicine they put me on to make me breathe does something to my muscles and my muscles are the ones that can't hold the adjustment.
Change in progress
1. Sleeping the cycle that my body was built to do. I go to bed by 12:30am.
2. Thank you Therapy and Golden Lasso.
3. I do 5 minute routine.
4. After the neurolympathic rub I trace my meridians
5. Because the meridians I have, that are out of whack in the morning are consistent, I do strengthening the acupuncture points exercise. During the time I started this diary, I have made a chart that helps me log. Maybe I can make another chart or check list. It has to be placed where I see it.
6. Witnessing on receiving. This is proof of my healing. The receiving has increased that I have noticed. It is now that I am to train myself that it can happen all the time instead of just once in a while. This helps me not to fall back into oh thinking and receiving habits.
7. No lipo lipo technique 30 times in one spot three times a week.
Changes coming up
2. Radio shows
3. Eating healthier
4. Write book