Yesterday I had a day off. Today I was feeling everyone's energy so intensely. Their soul's wanting me to do what they wanted. Their soul's are also pushing me about how they want to change. They consciously don't know their souls are asking. I have several people who do. Then there is their personality/characteristic of their over identities that are attacking me. No worries, I am fine.
This conceptional meridian itself nourishes the whole body and bathes the brain. This point is C17, defined below.
- Point of the Qi - tonify and move the Qi of the body.
- Chronic lung issues - cough, asthma, SOB, diaphragmatic pain.
- Breast issues - insufficient lactation, mastitis.
- Chest/Throat issues (rattling in throat w/asthma, difficulty swallowing, palpitations), counterflow Qi problems - guides the Qi downwards.
- Tong Ren/Tam Healing System: Important point for overall Qi (energy) in the body, useful for asthma.
- Emotions - On the list that I gathered it is all about being vulnerable and all the ways that guilt and shame can do it.
For me this central meridian will mean a lot. If you have been following along, you will notice way back when I was supposed to notice about humble /humiliation. I was in the accumulation stage of understanding how those words affect me or in my case cripple me. You will learn about that in tomorrow’s blog.
I found 1.Horror, 2. Defensiveness, 3. Hatred.
My day begun at 4 a.m. for me. I woke up and something didn't feel right. My neck was out of place. I couldn't really function. I laid there and waited out for my husband to get up for work. My luck was good as he got up at 5:30 instead of 6:30am. I know I have only seconds to do this. I said in a panic, "Please crack my neck?" This is another form of short but not terse speaking. I feel I don't have a long enough attention span to talk to him. I have only a second before the attention window of opportunity in the entanglements cord is gone. He cracked me neck and I felt so much better. It was a great relief. I only noticed that pain begun in my scapula (small intestines meridian - Emotion of abandonment and no love returned). I asked Spirit, "Why did that happen and why is my body acting this way?" I heard that the energies are redistributing back to their natural pattern of the chi and are unable to because of more trapped emotions. Interesting, was the only word I usually say. It intrigues me and I like the information. It makes me think and open a catalog to something I didn't know.
I ended up getting up when my husband did at 6:30am. I never feel back to sleep. I wasn't really functional. I just sat and looked at my computer. It was a snow day for the kids. My husband was driving the truck in instead of the car. The car had a flat. That truck drives awful in winter. After he got to work, and I knew he was fine, I went back to bed. I didn't wake up by my alarm. I had shut that off. I needwd sleep. I woke up around 11:50am. I was sluggish but rested. It felt like a weird combination.
I was in full throttle to take on everybody's emotions that day. I couldn't stop it. Everyone demanded my attention with love. I was just becoming so overwhelmed. I knew in my gut that this might be a day of just one big fat lesson. Wait until you see why tomorrow. What I can share with you is being an intuitive empath. Our boundaries become compromised not by what a person’s actions are, but by how a person brings energy into the room.
Jill Bolte' Taylor says it best, "You are responsible for the energy that you bring". I say "Be responsible for the energy you bring into the room." She had a stroke and she was able to be in an an operating system where she could notice the energies. Jill says the energy of the people around her played an important role in her recovery. "Take responsibility for the energy you bring," she says. "I was over here happy and you're over there trying to talk to me, and you had to be a really wonderful energy coming toward me in order for me to be willing to try to understand." Jill says she could feel the energy of the people who walked in her room and could even tell which nurses made her feel safe. The nurses who would make a connection with her, simply by making eye contact or touching her foot, made all the difference.
Then there is Carly Fleischmann, a severely autistic girl. She is amazing. She learned to be heard. She got a voice through using her computer. She is just like you and me. She just has a different operating system. She explains that when she looks at you briefly it hurts. It is because she doesn't have the filters or coping filters so she can handle all the information at one. On an average there are at least 4 billion bits of information coming at you at one. A person with filters takes in only about 2000 bits at one given time. She takes on more. I know what she means. When I am triggered to become a certain age, my body's energy becomes and acts that certain age. I still look like my 45 year old self but my operation system is compromised by an unresolved continued conditioned story and the trapped emotional experience my body hasn't released yet.
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I knew of this information about sensory input and output. But I couldn't (believe I) explain(ed) it. I might have explained it well but others would just look at as if I was weird.
It was getting late. I really didn't see the time. I knew that no matter what I did that day. I wasn't going to do what I wanted. I had to be there for everyone else. I almost didn't get my blogs written. I almost didn't get my show edited for the internet talk radio sepianc.com/radio. I have a show on there called Medicine Women Reveal. I wasn't going to have a live show. I made a new one to be aired. Well that didn't work either. I got it finished and submitted but not in time for it to get up loaded to the server.
NOTE: I am not blaming anyone. I am looking through the "Hurt" eyes of my child self. The soul needed this experience for me to help release the intense focus the observer (me) is looking at. It reacted in its human mindset and over identified with the moment with emotions becoming unbalanced. It was part of the evolution of the soul's journey. It is when we miss the mark of love.
I will not have my daily exercise blog for today for I was to busy mentally and emotionally exercising. See you tomorrow.