Radical change in Sleeping Habits. Checked
I went to bed at 11:30pm and got up at 9 am. I awoke at 4:30 am because Hubby got up. I thought it was time for work. I was alert but not fully. I listened for the door to open, so I could ask for a kiss. Instead, he ran into the bed which jerked the bed and I yelled out a started sound. Well, I am awake now. He began to snore but it simply didn't bother me. Using resolution healing tools are awesome. Just think a week ago, they had driven me nuts. My sleeping pattern was I would rest when no one was around. I got broken up sleep. I never bothered him as he is the bread winner in the family. Eleven days later a new sleep habit is begin to hold. Now to stay consistent and resolve any whining my body tells me about. I started to notice that falling back to sleep was annoying but I used HOPE Therapy healing tool and fell back to sleep.
What are the seeds of importance for today? The clues came in and of course these are the ones that have to be put on the shelf and wait for the accumulation. It is Monday and that meant two 2 hour radio shows. I planned my day and found out spirit really wanted me to incorporate exercise gradually to build stamina and endurance. One is advised to not do it all at once. Yes, we could do just that and get it all done and prove to others it can be done. I also know that for me, I would be building up those thought patterns from my body that makes it thinks it me and I feel and say I hate this.
Yesterday, I was going to talk about just that, a gradual progression can be unhealthy. We build stamina and endurance to the dangers around us. We toughen up and let it slide off our backs. We learn to ignore, suppress and even to suppress others. As we learn to adapt to our environment and time tells us that we conquered. This is true when the physical body has to endure life's emotional, mental and spiritual issues. Now, we get to see how it has an opposite. The body needs to do gradually to created stamina, endurance and healthy habits.
This was the article I didn't post. Which, it conveniently got into to today's blog. Why is it important to discipline - to stay active in your life on a mental, emotional, physical and spiritual level. A reader told me once this anecdote - a letter of encouragement after a blog they had read that I wrote. They wanted to give me encouragement as I wasn't the only one on my journey of sleeping issues alone. They wrote, "Don't beat yourself up Brenda. You never failed in your quest to keep more sane hours. You had the guts to put it out there for all of us to see. You lost a piss ant little battle the whole friggen war is yours to win." I thank you reader for the encouragement and the anecdote.
Picture of frog Photo Credit: Jonathan Zasloff
Anecdote: A frog will slowly become boiled alive by not being aware of its surroundings. The premise: A frog is placed in boiling water, it will jump out, but if it is placed in cold water that is slowly heated, it will not perceive the danger and will be cooked to death. The story is often used as a metaphor for the inability of people to react to significant changes that occur gradually.
I applied this to how we get into our comfort zones aka survival zones. Once we overcome an obstacle we need a well-deserved break. We survived another hard one. We are living to survive. We also learn to live in contentment because there are no threats in the moment. Now, we get to understand why I am doing the radical change. I want to start living for me not my body. I want to live by thriving.
As I am looking through my facebook posts, I ran across a person who was doing what I was doing. They were spiritual investigating their life. I was impressed. She was asking her friends for input to help her figure it out. By the time I wondered onto the scene, she had accumulated a good chunk of familiarity of the present moment and how it connects to where it had first began so long ago in the past. I asked if she wanted a reading. The energy is she didn't know how to respond to what I wrote. I then approach her and start talking about how good it was that she knows what she knows. The best part is to have closure. I offered the free healing tools so she can knock them out of the park. I still heard nothing. I thought "hmm", the thing she is asking is why people ignore her. I am being ignored right now. I assume maybe because they don't know how to introduce her to their friends. I know that I need to come up with a more precise way to help people spread the news about me. I have been collecting that information for a long time. I am still working on it. This is part of the un-foldment that one must trust.
She finally wrote back and pointed out she didn't like when people use the words YOU ARE together. She will glaze over them. Oh, I noticed that she has lost energy because a trigger of words. She went into semantics and was going to stick to her survival mode and keep the freeze mode as she didn't want people like me to help. I received a twang. In becoming a Spiritual Human one must learn about the twangs. Twang = you are happy one minute and then something triggers a response that hurts in some form. It can be any negative feeling. It tells you to put your guard up, to fight and hate them, to run or whatever stress mode will tell you. If you were working hard and stress is in your life that is a twang. One needs to notice if you are losing power to that thinking. If you are thinking it or is it your body telling you and if it is you can stop that voice and resolve issue so your body doesn't have to remind you, whine or be in charge.
I noticed when we get stuck and a twang appears. Your soul will guide you into listening to your thoughts of peace to into obsession. You can't stop thinking about it. The mental talk about the subject or person will increase. You will begin to feel the issue more intense because of the chemical peptides that those thoughts are making and the familiarity of the past of it being true you make more chemical peptides. Another sign you are off center, your thoughts will say, "I am unable to believe this and don't understand it." The last thing I wanted to do is to revert and go back to the old me which was to go into irrational/rational reasoning's and excuses that make sense. This is the old way I used to pacify, handle, and deal with the issue. Before I heal the twang I must hear the whole story. I look at all the clues. During the show I talked about it. As I began to read the letters, I noticed the tone I was using. BIG CLUE: tone gets lost in translation. There is the lens we see through that defines the moment. I asked my colleagues to tell me what tone they heard from her or in others words what did she mean? They didn't hear the same tone as I did. It was a polite way of saying thank you but no thank you. I continue to read and she says she doesn't believe in my kind of healing. The next letter she wrote was she was grouping me in that category of, "You are one of those and I hate them and they have no value and demean people like her." I could feel the energy of not only of not being in sync; I felt the power being in charge like my father. It is about being right and hated all the rest of the ways because there is no other way in this case for her. For my father it was I am right and everyone else is wrong and there is only one right way and I figured what it is. So therefore I am doing it right and you are doing it wrong.
I went to bed with all those clues in my head around 12:12am.
I have started another blog adventure of exercise.
Oy vey. Oh look more to heal. The body is whining again.