The first thing on my step to change is getting up at a certain time.
1. get up at 6:30am
There is more on the list but baby steps. I have used many tools to help me resolve issues and help my state of mental, emotional and spiritual states to be calm, stable and productive but the physical aspect is a bit of a challenge. I am not taking on the challenge of my physician self.
I don't sleep eight hours in a row. I have learned in the years to work with it. I don't want it to control my world. I want change. I have been a third shifter i think all my life. My mother was.
Last night I went to bed at 3am. My last night of staying up late. Well I tossed and turned. It felt like I didnt sleep but I did because I woke up from many dreams. It felt like I was constantly thinking and remembered it all. I stayed in bed as long as I could. I got up at 7:21am. I heard my husband get up for work at 6:30am. I must have gone bathroom many times during the night.
Now I am sitting in my office doing work. It is 8:51am and I am hungry. I need water. Noticing my habits. I have not had anything to drink since 3am. What am I a camel? I walk through the house and it is freezing in here. I am in only a t-shirt and underwear. I know TMI but i dont have socks on or pants and it is 67 degrees inside. My feet are stone cold now. So why don't I put my slippers and robe on? Well that is also an issue. I overheat in bed. I dont have hot flashes. I just overheat and makes me so uncomfortable I hate my bed in that moment. I get up and wonder around to cool off. But time goes by quickly and then I realize I am freezing.
How will I implement the next phase of my adventure of a radical change if I can't get some sleep.